The Wait
by alexus

I recognize this scent
It is my fear I smell
No sight or sound
Only the wait
Every nerve in me aches
stretched taut
I breathe slowly
To calm my heart
You are my fears
You are the reason I cover my eyes
At the scary parts
You are the shadow
Out side my window
I dread the first touch
Yet I ache for it
With all that I am
My mind races
To places it shouldn't be
I'm on the edge-
sure I'm going scream
To plead out
of my bonds
While I can still speak
I wait
Because I have no choice
And because
It is your will
Touch me
But don't make me wait
hurt me
break me
I would beg you not to
And beg you
Even more
To make sure you do
My arms asleep
From hanging
My body gleams with sweat
My fear is dripping
From between my legs
I am beyond reason now
The fear has overwhelmed
The wait can do no more
You have touched me
Not once
And yet I'm over the edge
I am wide open
In the darkness
An empty canvas
I'm ready for you now
You know.

Alexus Kelsey Freeland copyright 1997