Cutting Deep
by alluremnt

If I could just tell you...
                        how I feel...
If I could open up...
                           all my old wounds...
                                                  and let you in...
Let you take a peek
                                 at the journal
                                           of my life...

Maybe..
                     then you would understand why..

Why...
                       Why....
                                    yet I turn and cling to you.

You see, you are HIM .. all over again.

My dead hero...
                                     reincarnated...

My sunshine..
                                  that burned too much.

You are all of HIM...
                                          yet more...

And yes, you too can hurt me...
                                               in the deepest part of me..

                         Where it still hurts.

Why must I need you
                                     so badly?

Why must you know me so well?
                      Know the map of my soul?
                                 That part of me...

                                          well, that HE knew...
  Why do you inspire me...
                     to write it all down again?

On crumbled up peices of dreams...
Yet ....
          you haven't left me....
                                       not like HE did...

Is it because ...
               this time I'm not afraid to love you?

Or is because .. you ...
                                 need me...
     more than I thought I needed HIM?

©alluremnt/ 1988



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